God is good... but I am exhausted. --- And so was he--exhausted. Exhausting his final breath in a forceful cry at the moment of unmerited abandonment by God himself restrained by his own mutilated hands and feet naked and humiliated violated by the very souls for whom he would secure salvation by the very souls... Continue Reading →
between belief
I’d rather be wrongthat You might be glorified.Your yoke is easy and your burdenis light.Your burden is light.My yoke is perfection. My burden?Direction.My burden is running from death asthough running could stop it.My burden is running from endingsendlessly. My Lord, I am a daughter ofdemocracy, of equality, of liberty. As your servant, your subject,surrendering my... Continue Reading →
I’d buried my womb; I think I am ready to find it
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mL8DaS5UGd0 How old was I when I buried my womb? How old were you when you started digging? I don’t remember,but I’m older now--I’ve been torn about lookingfor the unmarked grave where I hid it. Why now must the lost be re-found?Why return to this clearing of trees? I know why, though I'd rather not... Continue Reading →
I was given a seed OR the difficult recipe for fruit
Revision, January 28, 2021 "Truly, truly, I say to you, unless a grain of wheat falls into the earth and dies, it remains alone; but if it dies, it bears much fruit." John 12:24 one seedone deatha prospect of new lifeof new mornings from fresh mourningif first, I make it through good-bye--through this night, throughthis winterpast... Continue Reading →
Jonah
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=geN2r_JRs7A Call me Jonah. O Lord, have mercy. may I be thrown into the sea. heck, I am already there. may I be swallowed and spit out by a whale. Yes. heart turned, but for me, also placed wherever the hell I am supposed to be? because honestly, God, I am kicking, and You know... Continue Reading →